I feel so much better.

Tonight has been a ridiculous night.

The heart of the matter is, I feel loads better right now. I talked to Henry honestly and deeply about what happened to our friendship halfway through school two years ago.

I apologized for what I put him through as a friend, because I know what it's like to be backstabbed by someone you trust so deeply, and even though it's been years since it happened, I needed to apologize for it all. And I did.

I don't regret what I did, and I told him that. And then he finally opened up to me for the first time. The most ironic part of it all was that he did it in a group chat with two people who knew nothing about the matter right there, listening awkwardly. But we got it out. And we both apologized for what we did, and how we acted, and he told me everything that he needed to say. He told me how he felt about her after everything, and I listened, and I told him what I had wanted to hear from him so long ago.

We talked about a lot of things that had remained unspoken for far too long, and it was good to get so much off my chest, and I am sure he felt the same way too. In the past three days, I feel like I've cleansed my conscience and my friendships, and seen things that needed to change more than I have ever done in my entire life. I feel much stronger, and much better about myself as a person. I feel confident, and I feel genuinely good.

My life is good. I am an incredibly lucky person, and I am glad that I can take advantage of the things that are presented before me. I am glad that I can have friendships and conversations at this age about topics that adults cannot. I feel good about the fact that I can express myself as well as I do.

And tomorrow, I am going to try and mend the final thing that needs to be back in order.