like poetry in motion, you could feel it in the air.

Don't you understand?

I still feel the same since I let you go. It's something I can't change, and it's hard for me to know. Oh, I'm such a fool for letting you go, I still feel for you. How you used to be there, waiting for me downstairs,

Like poetry in motion, you could feel it in the air.

Oh, David Choi. I know how you feel. I used to wonder why you never smiled in your videos. I think I know why, now.


It's amusing how life works.

I wish that I was already three years older,

And I could decide things.

I wish I could just buy a plane ticket

And call you at the airport,

"Surprise! Guess where I am?"

You'd come and pick me up,

And we'd drive to the beach

We'd take off our shoes in the car

And we'd walk in the sand,

Maybe let the water caress our feet.

I'd be holding your hand,

You'd be smiling

And we'd be laughing.

"Remember back when we were younger,

And we'd imagine being able to do this?

We'd imagine how we'd move into a flat..."

There'd only be one bedroom.

We'd share the bed,

But we'd both hog the covers.


I kept all of my feelings locked inside of me. Finally found someone to trust with everything. Oh, I try so hard always to be a man, but right now, I just can't understand how I can't control...I think love's got a hold on me. Such a boring feeling, but you know, I can get used to this...

I think even then, we would giggle.

You'd warm your feet against mine,

And I'd keep your smile next to me.

"We should go to sleep,"

You'd say.

"You're right, we should..."

Your silhouette would grasp mine

And embrace each other,

We'd stay up until the sun came up.

Knowing that in the morning,

I'd need to catch that flight back.

I'd need to wake up,

And realize it was only a dream.

A dream of what will come to be,

Because the way that we stay up now

And that it's happened before,

And is bound to happen again--

It can only show that I still feel for you.

You gave me a love like nobody can. How you bid your heart to me, don't you understand? I still feel the same since I let you go. It's something I can't change, and it's hard for me to know.

This pain in my back

...has been annoying me all day. This morning I could barely move. It was frustrating. But ice and Bengay have healed meh. Today's been a rather colorless day. I was expecting my guitar to arrive, yet it is still nowhere near here. I checked on the status and it says basically that UPS failed miserably and couldn't find the address to deliver it to, so I don't know what the fuck is up, but it is really, really annoying. I called Craig, who sold me the damn thing and told him what was going on, and he says he shall call UPS and tell them to top being douches and give me my guitar. It's getting really ridiculous. It's probably not going to get here until like, Friday. If even. It's been almost two weeks now since I bought the damn thing, and I still haven't touched it.

Meh.

Debronkart came over today. We watched a movie with Jeff. She ate my food, and she acted weird. Nothing out of the norm for her. I feel rather boring lately.
Good news is, although Erika has been told that she cannot come to DC with her dad, we have come up with a way to counter that. I have talked to my mother, and she's agreed to let her stay here, if she was able to, and that she'd be accommodated however she wanted without any problem. She agreed to talk to her dad, so hopefully they will work things out. I'm hopeful. I miss her a lot, and would love to see her and spend a few days with her. Koffe would also love to meet her, face to face. They've got a thing going on, the two of them. It's amusing. If she came, it would be a very delightful touch to this somewhat uneventful summer.

As far as me, personally, I have been doing pretty well. I've cleaned up a lot of things about myself that I wasn't very happy with, and I've made a lot of changes in the way I act--for the better. Now, I just need to talk to Vikki, and apologize for my actions. Then maybe I can get my friendship with her back on track, and this karma attack will cease.